Basically it.

I still remember the first time you said you love me.

My heart almost jumps out of my chest.

Then you said it again… and again… and again…

You tyrant. You never gave my heart even a little rest.

How do you explain something so inexplicably wonderful?

I lack the words. But my heart trembles at your every words.

It was a year of hugs and love.

What can I say? Love indeed is a mystery.

And so I love.

With all that is to me.

And then the next thing I knew your taking it all back.

And so I stare… and stare… and stare…

I have to believe you. I have to.

And you go back to the life you’ve once had.

With all the laugh.

And until now, I’m staring blankly.

Oh I hope I never love.

How are you doing that? Teach me how.

And so I stare.

With all that is to me.

What can I say? Love indeed is a mystery. 

One for the ladies!

I will find you.

No matter how long it takes, no matter how far --- I will find you.

-Nathaniel to Cora in The Last of the Mohicans -

Ladies, think about the movies and the novels you once loved. From  Titanic, Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty, Rapunzel, my all time favourite; Anastasia. The novels, Sense and Sensibility, The notebook, and so many others! See the heroine in each story, all princesses… if not, they are all princess-like right?

Wonder why we love them? Why we cherish their story? Because we too long to be treated like a princess, be a princess, to be the beauty, abducted by the bad guys, fought for and rescued by a hero.

Almost every girl once played the game “kidnapped and rescued” – or some version of it. Like the princesses in each tale – we wanted to be the heroine and have our hero come for us.  I simply want the feeling of being wanted and fought for.

But not everyone admits. J Most pretend that it is less than it is. Why? Because we wanted to be called strong rather than emotional.

But don’t you see that you want this? To be desire, to be pursued by one who loves you, to be someone’s priority? Most of our addictions flare up when we feel that we are not loved or sought after. At some core place, maybe deep within, perhaps hidden or buried in her heart, every woman wants to be seen, wanted, and pursued. We want to be romanced.     – CAPTIVATING John & Stasi Eldredge

I belong to Jesus

I grew up in a religious and traditional family. I was used to wake up early on Sundays to attend the first mass in the morning. I am used to praying the rosary almost everywhere, inside a jeepney, when I am about to sleep, whenever I get bored *yes... *whenever I am bored... and most absurdly was, even when I ride a motorcycle... 


I pray the novena when I wanted something from Him... I pray twice as hard if I really want that something. 


Everything was a routine... a routine done without thinking, without the presence of my heart. 


Then I started to crave for more. I hunger to know Jesus, to know the father more. I want to talk to Him personally, to share everything. Not just pray for things I wanted to have, or for breakthroughs I wanted my life to have. 


Before, I wanted to be able to know God more than I know myself... But I learned that He knows me more than I knew myself from the very start. I run away from Him most of my life and He in return, hugs me tighter... 


I sin... I am stubborn... I rebel... 
(If I see someone who is  as stubborn as I am, I will let him do whatever he pleases and let him see his faults and then learned from it by himself... as it is supposed to be...) 


But Jesus, as I was at the middle of my sins, at the wreck of my stubbornest, at the consequences of my rebellion, died for my sins...  ‎"His love endures forever" (Psalm 136:26)


I was overjoyed, I could not believe someone will give his life to save me from my sins. I wasn't sure if I am worthy of it, the purest of pure, the one without sin will willingly want to die for me? Sino ako? 


Then realization hits me... or should I say, Jesus' love hits me. :) 


I am still hungry, I am still craving to know Him more, I want to know my saviour, my redeemer...  


That's why I'm praying and I know He will answer according to His will, that I be given the wisdom to know his will, the heart to understand, and the courage to do them... 


When you give everything to God, nothing is impossible.. 


Lean to love the Dream Giver more than the dream itself, for He dreams far more than we do.